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Saturday, May 12, 2012

Dear soldier.





So it's been 2 years and 3 days since I last saw you.
3 days
because I remember the two of you came to the camp on Sunday.
You left on Wednesday.
Sunday to Monday, Monday to Tuesday, Tuesday to Wednesday.
3 days.


Just the night before, I felt compelled to recite Surah Yaasin.
Usually it's done because we have to, or I want to
but that night, it felt because I - alone - have to.


It's fine. I was already 18.


Things have changed so much since you left.
By 'so much', I mean.. A LOT.
Not just me. Well, you know, everyone. Everything.


I never regretted the day you left.
Not even teeny tiny bit.
It is a blessing in disguise.


Well, all I can say is that now I feel a little less protected.
Never mind, I can try to protect myself for the moment being.
And Allah is always around.


Father,
please wait for Mum; one day, she'll be home with you
for eternity.
I wish for an infinite bliss - for both you and Mum - in Jannah.


Forever gone; never to return
but the love remains; it never dies.


Al Fatihah.