tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64142450933067777282024-02-19T16:27:19.783+08:00Perfectly Imperfect.this is the life.Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.comBlogger191125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-17547001807576424632014-02-01T02:43:00.002+08:002014-02-01T02:43:34.963+08:00Locked in.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I fear</div>
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that when I say what I feel</div>
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or my feelings were deemed nonsense</div>
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or that it is not mutually felt</div>
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I can't afford to be weak.</div>
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Life didn't wait</div>
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for someone to ask me if I'm okay</div>
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or for me to heal</div>
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or for my troubles to fade</div>
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They will keep on coming.</div>
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I am tired.</div>
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I am.. unhappy, admittedly.</div>
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Of myself and my shortcomings</div>
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and the world and its cruelty.</div>
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Enough for me to consider flying away</div>
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if you <i>understand</i>.</div>
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there is someone out there</div>
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a huge group, even</div>
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who suffered worst-</div>
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so I can't afford to be</div>
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I dare not to share my feelings anymore</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-64291726057573975672013-10-17T03:08:00.002+08:002013-10-17T03:08:51.785+08:00Habukss.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ha!</div>
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Fuhh lama tak bukak page ni.</div>
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Sebenarnya tak tau nak letak apa dah.</div>
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Tapi baru baru ni</div>
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ada follow Twitter account @englishjer</div>
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dan ada masa diorang promote satu site ni</div>
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awefullywritten.com.</div>
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Terlintas hati nak hantar karya kat situ hehe.</div>
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Actually dah hantar! Haha</div>
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Kalau jumpa bagitau titeww yewww hahahaha</div>
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Jadi mungkin</div>
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blog ni akan jadi tempat</div>
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cuba try test</div>
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sekadar menaip</div>
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apa yang terdengar, terlihat, terasa; lalu terfaham</div>
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lalu tercurah semahunya di sini, dan sana.</div>
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Takat tu jelah.</div>
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Salam Sejahtera.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-37844240475310426622013-08-19T02:06:00.000+08:002013-08-19T02:06:00.903+08:00Kebanggaan.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Simple je ceritanya.</div>
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Begini.</div>
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Siang tadi aku beraya raya.</div>
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4 rumah diserbu.</div>
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Di rumah yang ke-4 ni, aku disapa oleh bapa saudara aku.</div>
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Dia tanya pasal progress studies aku.</div>
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Kataku, "dah habis diploma.</div>
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In shaa Allah, Noor masuk degree."</div>
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Katanya, "okay, belajar elok elok.</div>
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Cuba dapatkan first honors."</div>
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Selepas tu dia tanya,</div>
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"boleh tak dapatkan first honors tu?"</div>
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Jawabku, "in shaa Allah."</div>
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Tapi soalan tu membuatku pantas terfikir</div>
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<i><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">selama ni kita belajar untuk apa?</span></i></div>
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Betul ke demi ilmu seperti yang disangka kita?</div>
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Ke demi segulung ijazah</div>
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yang akan dapatkan kita</div>
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kerja, duit, rumah, kereta?</div>
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Bayarkan bil bil kita?</div>
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Menjadi kebanggaan keluarga?</div>
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Sampaikan aku tertanya tanya,</div>
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Memang raya aku</div>
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penuh dengan benda camni.</div>
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Soalan paling aku malas nak dengar, jujurnya,</div>
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"sambung mana?"</div>
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Macam nak bertanding anak siapa paling lejen.</div>
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kita mintak kerja pun orang tengok ijazah.</div>
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Time raya pun tanya konvo bila.</div>
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Yang tak habis belajar tu tak semestinya tak pandai</div>
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tapi yang habis belajar tu orang akan kata 'mesti dia ni pandai'.</div>
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Legit tak statement tu?</div>
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Ke ada yang nak argue? Boleh. I'm open to anything.</div>
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Aku pun termangu sendiri.</div>
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All those semesters wasted.</div>
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I wondered if I have actually learned anything all this while.</div>
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I want to be better, in shaa Allah.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-75742666814096276112013-07-25T00:31:00.000+08:002013-07-25T00:31:12.880+08:00Phase two.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Naturally it reminded me of my father</div>
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one I would call king of four princesses HAHAHA.</div>
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I LOLed because I hardly act like a princess, but yeah..</div>
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So, Papa</div>
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this is the second phase of my life in which</div>
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the campus, just because you can, or you're bored.</div>
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It's not you to talk much;</div>
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you mostly ask.. things I deem practical questions.</div>
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My classes, where I eat, where I go to buy stuffs.</div>
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I know it's been 3 years.</div>
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I know I should have been better than I was.</div>
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My friends said so, but..</div>
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I just hope you're okay wherever you are.</div>
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I hope my prayers reach out for you,</div>
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don't know if it's enough, but</div>
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because I have nothing else to give you.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-5694340491067844732013-07-05T23:47:00.000+08:002013-07-06T01:29:25.500+08:00Clearance, teh tarik, dan Pizza Hut.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ohkayyy!</div>
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Ceritanya semalam dan hari ni teman ada di Segamat.</div>
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Sampai je kampus singgah jap kat bilik lama.</div>
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Borak jap. Kejaplah sangat. Muehehe</div>
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Petang sikit baru gerak ke Zamrud</div>
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di mana kita menginap.</div>
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Bertembung dengan exco chess.</div>
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Boraklah lagi.</div>
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Bertemu kat admin,</div>
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macam macam ceritalah teman dengar.</div>
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Sambil diorang kerja diorang,</div>
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dengarlah diorang bercerita progress diorang so far.<br />
Jalan jalan tu pun bertembunglah dengan kawan kawan CS,<br />
Transport Part 5 iaitu Ju, Anis, ngan Sakey.<br />
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Tau tau ada Student Voice malam tu.</div>
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Jadi Fatinaz pun ajak ke DSB untuk lepak.</div>
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Akhirnya bertemu jugak, alhamdulillah.</div>
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Berjumpa tu terus berpeluk.</div>
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Mereka yang nampak kami tu dapat movie percuma dari kami. Hahahambar</div>
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Dan akhirnya bertembung semula</div>
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dengan Syafiq, Zaim, Daus and Aqilah.</div>
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Adatnya kami bila bertembung kuasa gila kami bergabung,</div>
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berlipat gandalah gila kami jadinya.</div>
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Alhamdulillah, jumpa jugak ye.</div>
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Soooo dah jumpa yang lain</div>
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tapi si Rush takde. Haih si anti sosial.</div>
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Aqilah kabor kat dia jumpa kat NR pukul 10.30 gitu.</div>
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Long story cut short, Fatinaz, Aqilah, Daus ngan teman gerak terus ke sana</div>
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few minutes after 10.30.</div>
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Syafiq ngan Zaim tinggal dulu, nak ambik cop rasanya.</div>
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Kami pun duduklah kat NR</div>
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Rush macam biasa, datang je tengah cakap kat tepon.</div>
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Bergayut ke ber'business' ke teman tak tau.</div>
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LOL bergayut. Haha</div>
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Aqilah cadang beli air dulu.</div>
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Macam biasa, bro, teh tarik gelas besau.</div>
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Rush punyalah fokus cakap kat tepon</div>
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sampai tak pasan kitorang lalu depan dia. Sabo je la.</div>
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Aqilah buat prank call pun dia boleh blur lagi, masyaAllah.</div>
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Nampak teman je responnya 'eh?'</div>
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Katanya Syafiq kata teman datang esok.</div>
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Tu yang dia heran.</div>
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Dengan duduknya kami semua</div>
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bermulalah conversation yang isinya</div>
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penuh dengan apa yang dah jadi ngan kampus ni</div>
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sejak teman habis diploma kat sini.</div>
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Cerita biasalah. Cerita yang kalau diikutkan</div>
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sama je every sem.</div>
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Berceritalah kami kat situ</div>
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sampai orang yang kerja kat situ pun gitau kitorang</div>
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'nak balik nanti tutup lampu.'</div>
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Haha ayat yang biasa kami dapat</div>
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sebab memang muka kami je</div>
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yang selalu lepak situ sampai pepagi buta.</div>
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Esoknya pulak, iaitu hari nilah</div>
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kami plan nak makan.<br />
Singgah ATM kejap. Bertembung dengan Hakim Banking Part 3.<br />
Borak kejap, kemudian terus ke bus stop.</div>
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Rush brought the boys</div>
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Kami gegadis ni, Eeka, Aqilah, Fatinaz dan teman sendiri</div>
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kena tunggu mahunya sejam setengah untuk kereta sewa kami.</div>
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Kacau plan jugak.</div>
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Aqilah drive laju, kau tau.</div>
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Boleh buat movie Fast and Furious: Segamat.</div>
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Featuring Aqilah dan Rush.</div>
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Boleh tengok siapa punya driving lagi laju terbabas, kan. Haha</div>
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Risau tiket habis, kami ke terminal, beli tiket dulu</div>
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sebab tadi ramai jugak usung beg besar.</div>
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Kesian the boys tunggu lama</div>
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sebab orang yang belanjanya tak datang datang lagi. Haha</div>
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Kami pun suruh diorang order dulu.</div>
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Syafiq kata 'adat orang Johor makan kena sesama.' leulz</div>
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Aqilah kata 'gitau diorang order drinks ke, side dish ke.'</div>
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Kita pun text la Syafiq.</div>
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Replynya? 'Kalau ambik skang nanti jadinya</div>
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kena order lagi, jadi baik takyah.</div>
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Kitorang tengah menjimatkan kau ni,' jelasnya.</div>
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Tau tak kitorang risau korang lambat makan. Paham tak. Haha</div>
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AKHIRNYAAAA</div>
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tibalah kami kat Pizza Hut, haaa kelas kau.</div>
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Fatinaz bawak beg sebenarnya tapi akhirnya bawak purse je.</div>
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Teman pun tanyalah, 'kenapa tak bawak?'</div>
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Jawabnya, 'dalam tu ada buku ENT.'</div>
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Perh dedikasi sungguh.</div>
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Masuk masuk terus cari diorang. Eh takde.</div>
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Tepon si Syafiq. 'Kat mana?'</div>
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'Kat Pizza. Korang kat mana?'</div>
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'Kami kat Pizza Hut dah ni.'</div>
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Kelentong ke cane ni, haha</div>
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Anyway, last last bagilah the honor nak pilih pizza</div>
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kepada mereka yang setia menanti lagi kebulur ni.</div>
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Dah order tu, bermulalah gila kuasa empat kami.</div>
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Masa kami tengah bahagia membahan sesama sendiri</div>
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tetiba ada orang datang ke meja kami, jual labu.</div>
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Terkejut jap, sebab caught off guard kan.</div>
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Kami pun kata, 'takpelah, terima kasih.'</div>
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Fatinaz kata dia alergik labu.</div>
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Orang tu pun senyum, kemudian berlalu pergi.</div>
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Kami spontan terus tergelak sebab</div>
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ianya sangat random. Haha</div>
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Seriously we had no intent to insult ke apa</div>
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cuma kami terkejut. Hihi</div>
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Jarum jam menunjukkan pukul 6 petang.</div>
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Tiket setengah jam lepas tu.</div>
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Kami pun bangun beransur.</div>
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Last last minute cenggini Rush boleh tanya</div>
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pasal lagu apa yang teman dah ambik</div>
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dan kalau benda yang Ather mintak dah transfer.</div>
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Lagu banyak kot teman ambik, tapi</div>
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teringat lagu Moon River.</div>
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Terkejut dia. 'Moon River?'</div>
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'Haa yelah. I ada transfer lagu Audrey Hepburn dalam tu.'</div>
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'Movie dia ada tak?'</div>
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'Ada.'</div>
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'Ada dalam tu (external dia)?'</div>
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'Tak.'</div>
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'Transferkan.'</div>
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Deiii thambi, you ah.</div>
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So it has come to this</div>
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the farewell.</div>
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Gave a hug to Fatinaz.</div>
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Nak tunggu tapi macam tak sure how soon the bus will leave,</div>
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so naik jelah.</div>
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Dah duduk tu, nampak Eeka berlari ke bas.</div>
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Terdengar Fatinaz kata, 'dia dah naik dah.'</div>
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Teman pun turun. Eeka was like, 'Syidaaaa!'</div>
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Dan kami pun berpelukan. Yang jadi saksi, bakal penumpang bas. Haha</div>
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Pakcik driver bas gagap yang nampak kami tadi</div>
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imitate drama kami tadi. Siap dengan jeritan kasih sayang Eeka tu lagi. Haha</div>
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Orang keliling kami tergelak je. Hahaha siot.</div>
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Few tears were shed. Yelah, syahdu maa.</div>
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Rush ngan Syafiq tunggu kat kereta</div>
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risau tak memasal kena saman.</div>
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Just when I thought I could give them a proper farewell.</div>
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I texted them. Syafiq reply,</div>
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'takpe nanti I and Rush akan buat surprise farewell.'</div>
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Surprise farewell?</div>
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Surprisekan kita then kata byebye then terus pegi ke cane?</div>
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Hehe gurau :)</div>
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Bas bertolak. Teman duduk seat yang tepinya laluan, bukan tingkap</div>
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jadi dengan sopannya teman mintak penumpang sebelah</div>
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untuk tukar tempat.</div>
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Nak lambai kat diorang for one last time.</div>
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Dia pun senyum dan kami pun tukar tempat duduk.</div>
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And I did.</div>
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I waved goodbye to them for one last time.</div>
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The last couple of days at UiTM Segamat</div>
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was pure awesomeness.</div>
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Alhamdulillah, it was such fun.</div>
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In shaa Allah, we'll meet again.</div>
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Really, I hope and pray that we will.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-21921977525233016022013-06-26T00:37:00.002+08:002013-06-26T00:37:23.349+08:00Deep pockets.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I had a rather bad memory with</div>
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This is a story that not many knew,</div>
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not even one <i><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">financially-stable</span></i> friend of mine;</div>
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because I judged this person wrongly,</div>
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and I felt bad doing so, up to this day.</div>
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Let's just say,</div>
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this one rich person</div>
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made the strongest person I've ever known</div>
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broke down and cry.</div>
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I was there.</div>
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This man.. created a motion picture, in my head</div>
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which happened only once;</div>
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but it stayed with me for a lifetime.</div>
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Being the immature person I was,</div>
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Big time.</div>
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being wise as He is,</div>
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guided me.</div>
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Life at university has brought me to befriend</div>
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a few who are.. rich.</div>
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And.. they're not that bad.</div>
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Well there were details, but,</div>
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to sum it up, I was proved wrong.</div>
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I'm still working on that judgemental part of mine.</div>
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I'm trying to believe.</div>
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I still encounter a-hole rich people here and there.</div>
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Kind of did today, in fact,</div>
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at the place where I'm working.</div>
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But I'm trying. I want to believe.</div>
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It felt good being proved wrong.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-62403797878330905872013-06-23T01:44:00.001+08:002013-06-23T01:44:16.817+08:00What to tell?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Quite frankly</div>
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I'm lacking the time and energy to blog.</div>
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Even my Tumblr was close to being abandoned.</div>
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Twitter stayed active though,</div>
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tweeted mostly of the things not worth laughing at, really.</div>
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Thought of posting those stuffs here as well, but</div>
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we'll see.</div>
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There's so much to tell.</div>
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The things I learn.</div>
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The things I have come to understand.</div>
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Maybe even things I can never bring myself to speak out.</div>
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Twitter is the closest you'll ever get</div>
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to know how things are going at the moment.</div>
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Mostly feelings;</div>
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so if you don't mind me being emotional so</div>
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by all means, read on.</div>
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To spill the details.. well.</div>
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No.</div>
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I can't even speak out. Been that way since.. ever, I guess.</div>
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So if I ever talk, I don't need anything else but</div>
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just a listener.</div>
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Leave it to my brain</div>
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to nag at me</div>
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of the things I could have done better.</div>
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Don't know what else to type about</div>
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apart from that, so</div>
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cheers.</div>
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Peace be upon you.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-25838222799493408352013-06-08T01:50:00.001+08:002013-06-08T01:59:43.626+08:00Headphones.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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As I look at my (fake) Beats headphone</div>
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<span style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>a memory came to mind.</i></span></div>
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It was during PC fair, at my campus.</div>
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My current headphones - also Beats - is dying</div>
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and I was looking for a new one.</div>
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My crazy friend, my crazy friend's neighbour - our close friend</div>
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our mutual friend, also a close friend</div>
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and there's me. Four of us.</div>
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The neighbour and I were trying on a few headphones</div>
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and my crazy friend saw that,</div>
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so he called from afar, 'hoi, minah, sini jap.'</div>
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So I did, and later he asked,</div>
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'you cari headphone ke?'</div>
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Then I said, 'yeah. I punya pun nak jahanam dah, tu yang cari tu.'</div>
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Then the neighbour called again</div>
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and we're back to trying out one headphones after another.</div>
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Long story cut short, I found one that sounded good.</div>
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He told me to try it out, so I did.</div>
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To test the bass, I plugged it in my phone</div>
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and played Hans Zimmer's <i><span style="color: lime; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_IdA7aV4ftY" style="background-color: #f9cb9c;" target="_blank">Dream Is Collapsing</a></span></i></div>
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right at the middle, where the climax is building its force.</div>
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'How is it?'</div>
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'Soooo good. Go on and try it! Put it on.'</div>
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He did.</div>
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'Ready?'</div>
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'Yeah.'</div>
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I played the song, at the same part,</div>
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and he's wearing the same face like the Obama's not bad meme.</div>
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The price is RM48; RM80 if bought two.</div>
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'You nak beli ke?'</div>
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'Kenapa?'</div>
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Seeing that I'm a bit lost, the neighbour</div>
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translated, 'dia nak kau belikan untuk dia, sebenarnya.'</div>
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Looking at him smiling coyly made me LOL so hard.</div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000;">But BUT I didn't bring enough money with me!</span></div>
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Well, as it turns out, all four of us wanted that headphone, haha.</div>
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Seeing that I didn't have sufficient money,</div>
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we agreed on letting them pay for mine</div>
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and I'll pay them back.</div>
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<span style="color: #e69138;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I was very much thankful.</span> <span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">:')</span> Baiknyaaa</span></div>
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So we went back to our rooms with new pair of headphones.</div>
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The guys were so excited to plug it in</div>
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and play DOTA and Counter Strike. Haha</div>
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I was more excited to try on every song with this headphones.</div>
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The headphones reminded me of this night.</div>
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It was great fun.</div>
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>My vocabulary is far too limited to describe that night.</i></span></div>
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I miss them.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-37614068243668947112013-05-17T01:52:00.001+08:002013-05-17T01:54:00.853+08:00Longing.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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This is a kind of longing</div>
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where</div>
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it is both sad and hopeful.</div>
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Sad,</div>
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because of a distance;</div>
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easily understood by metric values</div>
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but with emotions indescribable.</div>
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It is still hopeful one, all the same;</div>
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for one day,</div>
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for every joy I have felt,</div>
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for every beautiful thing I see,<br />
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if for now I feel it alone,</div>
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I hope one day</div>
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I could feel it the second time,</div>
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but this time</div>
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you all will be with me.</div>
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I guess,</div>
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distance and time is not a bad thing.</div>
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I am contented.</div>
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You don't always get it back;</div>
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in fact, they could</div>
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hurt you</div>
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even forget you</div>
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Give, doesn't always get.</div>
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I am still all that</div>
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Once, or twice</div>
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I wish I could embrace your neck tightly</div>
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and send you to a world</div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>where everything is better than here.</i></span></div>
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I even wished</div>
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I could turn the tides of the ocean</div>
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and let it envelop you, like a tsunami,</div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>into complete dissolution.</i></span></div>
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so they hold it in,</div>
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<i><span style="color: #f6b26b; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">hiding behind a practised smile;</span></i></div>
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they wear a mask.</div>
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Such is the act, portrayed by</div>
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three of the kindest people I have ever known.</div>
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I feel it.</div>
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I so wanted to do bad things to you;</div>
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until I remembered an advice Mama once said,</div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>'don't do to others whatever shit they do to you.'</i></span></div>
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It took me years and years,</div>
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one life story after another,</div>
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to finally understand why.</div>
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If I repay to you</div>
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the hurtful thing you have done to me</div>
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">then I am no different than the evil you are.</span></div>
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by a mother's advice</div>
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and a story of three of my friends, all similar.</div>
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It is hard to do. But I want to try.</div>
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Rasulullah SAW did that, right?</div>
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<span style="color: #93c47d; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>He was patient - loving and forgiving, in fact - all the way.</i></span></div>
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May Allah Taala ease everything.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-68473023540561856932013-05-03T20:23:00.001+08:002013-05-03T20:23:16.795+08:00Oh, life.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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were spent on</div>
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looking for new songs of all sorts of classes.</div>
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Rock, house, instrumentals.</div>
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Trying to look for new acts.</div>
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Otherwise, I'll just look for movies</div>
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I am now rarely in contact</div>
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with my musical advisor, by choice;</div>
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therefore the best I could do</div>
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is to adopt the method he often used.</div>
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In the process, I found few tracks on my own</div>
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some few I genuinely like,</div>
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unaffected by anyone's judgement; only my own.</div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>I hope to get few recommendations from him every now and then,</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #93c47d; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>but for now, I'll just go to YouTube.</i></span></div>
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The thing about looking for</div>
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one song rather than one whole album is</div>
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And I never found only one song</div>
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- I could come up with over 10 per night,</div>
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so imagine the number of tabs I will open</div>
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to look for the artist, album, track number, release year, album cover-</div>
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<span style="color: #76a5af; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>I am very particular with these stuffs. Hihi</i></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #c27ba0; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">And Cataloguing is not my best subject, admittedly;</span></i></div>
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although for a brief while,</div>
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But hey, painful as the subject may be,</div>
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it was memorable.</div>
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Doing this again after a long while</div>
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<span style="color: #f6b26b; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>of the days I kept complaining about this subject</i></span></div>
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to my friends, every time I meet them.</div>
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I suppose my friends are doing great, somewhere.</div>
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I'm looking forward to seeing them again.</div>
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Every once in a while, they would come in my dreams,</div>
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saying they have so much to tell me about.</div>
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It's weird, but,</div>
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<i><span style="color: #ea9999; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I get to hear their stories.</span></i></div>
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I have always loved hearing stories.</div>
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Sooner or later,</div>
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we'll meet again. Till then,</div>
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peace be upon you.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-63099435169895612252013-04-16T02:50:00.001+08:002013-04-16T04:27:31.763+08:00To my beloved mental patients.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<i><span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Batman,</span></i></div>
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You are my partner in crime, my confidante, my musical adviser.</div>
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LOL, musical adviser.</div>
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You are the cheekiest, most cunning 12-year-old</div>
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I have ever encountered.</div>
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I have seen you winning and losing - but completely happy? <span style="font-family: inherit;"><u>Not yet</u>.</span><br />
Maybe one day. Let me know when it comes!</div>
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<i><span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Also, I cannot deny that I have a lot to thank you for.</span></i></div>
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So, in one simple statement,</div>
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thank you for this bond we have.</div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>Hamster,</i></span></div>
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perhaps the last days we had were not well spent.</div>
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Not to mention, there were things I left unsaid.</div>
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And there are things you have yet to know.</div>
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The moment I embraced you on our last paper</div>
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how I broke down</div>
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confirmed how much you mean to me.</div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>I like the way you are now; stay that way.</i></span></div>
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You have my utmost support.</div>
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Thank you for all the great lessons you taught me.</div>
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you have a girl now. You are about to marry her.</div>
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Do as Batman told you,</div>
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'hold on to that feeling.'</div>
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I don't know how much help I could be for you,</div>
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but I can assure you I will try my best.</div>
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If you want to talk,</div>
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Listening to stories is one of the things I love doing. :)</div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>Mental,</i></span></div>
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quite frankly, I see you less and less and I don't know why.</div>
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But Batman and Terminator would always tell me about you</div>
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so at least I get to keep tabs on you.</div>
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You have started to get more busy with your emceeing and sports.</div>
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I suppose you are, at least.</div>
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Whatever it is you want to achieve, go for it;</div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>for I believe in you.</i></span></div>
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Please don't mess up your studies, though.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Apple,</span></i></div>
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I know my.. <i><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">friend</span></i> could be a handful to handle.</div>
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He's weird that way. He gets on my nerves too.</div>
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But he's a nice guy once you get past it.</div>
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Be his friend, and if, and only <i><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">if</span></i></div>
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things are going good, proceed to the next level <i><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">if you want</span></i>;</div>
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you have my approval.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">You handle him better than I do.</span></i></div>
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As for the other guy, ah well,</div>
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just be patient. Otherwise, ask Batman to help you out.</div>
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I love you.</div>
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It is not often I actually wanted so much for anyone,</div>
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therefore now I must admit,</div>
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I am now vulnerable to you;</div>
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people could hurt me through you,</div>
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and you have what it takes to hurt me.</div>
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I won't tell you to not hurt me;</div>
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people will get hurt anyway.</div>
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Be happy - that's all I ask.</div>
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Be happy, and I will be happy for you.</div>
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If you are despaired, I will try to be there.</div>
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I don't know how to help you though,</div>
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but I will try.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #76a5af; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Until then, farewell.</span></i></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-89325559442419694452013-04-16T01:53:00.000+08:002013-04-16T01:54:20.174+08:00Rakan seperjuangan.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Tiap senyum, tawa, dakapan</div>
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masih lagi berbekas.</div>
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Tiap perasaan kalian, terserap ke dalam jiwa.</div>
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Kutatap gambar kita.</div>
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Bangga timbul di hati,</div>
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betapa kita telah membesar dan matang bersama.</div>
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Namun kita tahu,</div>
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setiap yang bermula akan ada akhir,</div>
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setiap pertemuan akan ada perpisahan.</div>
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Duhai kalian yang berjuang bersamaku</div>
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DIIM Disember 2010 - April 2013</div>
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ketahuilah, telah kusediakan</div>
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satu ruang - di minda, di hati,</div>
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di mana segala kenangan kita berhuni.</div>
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<span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>Arkib yang tersedia khas untuk kalian.</i></span></div>
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Kurindui keriangan kalian.</div>
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Perjalanan kita kini lain lain.</div>
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Cita cita kita, lain.</div>
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Kemampuan kita, lain.</div>
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Namun bersama kita adalah Dia yang satu</div>
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dan kuberdoa, kita akan ketemu lagi,</div>
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dengan kegirangan serupa remaja</div>
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dan kematangan laksana orang terpelajar;</div>
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dan mungkin</div>
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tentang hikayat kita dahulukala</div>
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situasi semasa</div>
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dan harapan masa depan.</div>
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>Kunantikan hari itu.</i></span></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-75720606218991431542013-04-02T14:52:00.001+08:002013-04-02T14:58:17.735+08:00Hover.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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It hit me, rather hard</div>
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that happiness is a rare luxury.</div>
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For a while you will be happy; and then</div>
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THE END.</div>
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And often, you won't leave,</div>
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you will hover on that problem</div>
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until you actually learn something</div>
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and move on.</div>
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Just how often do we learn</div>
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That's life's unspoken rule for you.</div>
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If that's the case then..</div>
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I will pray for happiness no more.</div>
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I will ask for<br />
<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>love,</i></span> <span style="color: #45818e; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>wisdom</i></span> and <span style="color: #e69138; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><i>courage</i></span></div>
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I am no longer sure if my heart could go through</div>
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one sad reality after another;</div>
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my heart is slowly wearing out.</div>
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>"Don't try to be heartless</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>but try to use your heart less,"</i></span> </span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>you said.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>I'm sorry, love..</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>I figured that out too late.</i></span></div>
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I wish I knew</div>
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what keeps me sad though.</div>
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It may either be that reality is really just a sad thing..</div>
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or that it is just me, looking at life at a wrong angle.</div>
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If it is the former, then I hope for a strong heart and mind.</div>
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then I must begin looking for hope, I guess.</div>
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Where do I begin, I wonder..</div>
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Since when have I become so afraid of being happy?</div>
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I can't stay this way forever, right?</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-38701263341813737472013-03-20T23:37:00.000+08:002013-03-20T23:40:57.935+08:00Go back.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Prone to mistakes.</div>
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Enchanted by temptations.</div>
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Worn out by despair.</div>
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I told you we are no angels.</div>
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If you would reflect back, and wonder</div>
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why he made the request</div>
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you will understand.</div>
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I don't know and see everything</div>
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but</div>
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I did know and see <i><span style="color: #76a5af; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">something.</span></i></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-74781380078690205512013-02-13T07:21:00.005+08:002013-02-13T07:21:50.483+08:00They calm my nerves.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>For studying</i></span></div>
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Instrumentals and classicals<br />
are not only peaceful, but<br />
they are also CGPA-enhancing kind of music, so<br />
try listen to a few here and there :)</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-27702307689226444352013-02-09T19:50:00.001+08:002013-02-10T21:41:41.456+08:00Untitled.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I don't know what to write.</div>
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I don't know where to begin.</div>
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I don't know how to speak of this feeling I feel.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #e69138; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">We all have a battle or two to survive.</span></i></div>
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I am no exception.</div>
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My friend has recently lost a loved one to a brain tumour.</div>
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A companion and I, we are very much despaired for his loss</div>
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for this is the first time we have ever seen him</div>
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so much in love, and divinely happy and content.</div>
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He lost her within a week</div>
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after he proposed to her.</div>
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But I am happy for him, still,</div>
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for he managed to tell her how ardently he loved her before her time comes,</div>
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and she to him.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Better late than never.</span></i></div>
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He is still in mourn, however,</div>
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he tried. I know he tried.</div>
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Well, the thing about death is</div>
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you try so hard to cover everything up, to suppress it,</div>
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<i><span style="color: #45818e; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">that in the end, you somehow become.. hardened;</span></i></div>
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so much so that you will be regarded as ignorant of other people's conditions</div>
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or that you just don't.. feel.</div>
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It happens. People don't quite understand.</div>
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But can I blame them? After all, they really don't know.</div>
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They don't know how it feels like to lose a father.</div>
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They don't know how it feels like to lose someone you love.</div>
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Well, perhaps I can blame on their rock-bottom level of consideration.</div>
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Or selfishness.</div>
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Or simply, stupidity.</div>
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Doesn't matter, it doesn't change anything.</div>
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I just don't care.</div>
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It hurts when it happened but in the end</div>
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I guess I just stopped caring</div>
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for I'm quite done trying to be understood.</div>
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I kind of ended up being.. disappointed.</div>
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To be fair, I don't understand pretty much everyone.</div>
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I don't live their lives.</div>
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And then there's a story of unrequited love.</div>
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I must say, this story goes back to about 2 semesters ago.</div>
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It didn't take much to notice;</div>
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just a post on a blog</div>
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an acute understanding on a person's picture of 'perfect'</div>
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and the peculiar timing.</div>
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You can say I was just lucky I saw it coming.</div>
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Like everyone in love, she wishes nothing but only the best for him.</div>
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Then this one girl came along.</div>
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And everything just.. took a turn, for the better.</div>
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I see he has changed a bit.</div>
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He smiled more - the genuine smile.</div>
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<span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>He giggled like a kid. Oh, it was so adorable, haha</i></span></div>
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My friend, my confidante, my brother</div>
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Dear God, isn't he so happy..</div>
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And the two of us - heck, every one of his closest companions - noticed.</div>
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And yes, we are very happy indeed.</div>
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But I guess.. not everyone has the privilege of time, isn't it.</div>
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Upon finding out that the hope of him finally finding bliss</div>
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after years mourning over the first one</div>
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has gone for good.. with her,</div>
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she cried for a long time.</div>
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It was a sight not even I can bear witnessing.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #674ea7; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Time - not everyone has plenty, nor were they so lucky.</span></i></div>
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Then, a story of friendship.</div>
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I received a phone call from an unidentified number</div>
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on my father's phone.</div>
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After greetings, he asked for my father.</div>
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"He's not here."</div>
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"Where is he going?"</div>
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"He's.. no longer here."</div>
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"What, he doesn't work there anymore?"</div>
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"He.. passed away."</div>
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"Innalillah wa inna ilaihi rajiun. When?"</div>
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"Quite a while.. it's been 2 years."</div>
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"2 years? Of what?"</div>
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"Heart attack."</div>
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"God forgive me, I did not know. May I know who am I speaking to?"</div>
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"His daughter."</div>
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"Is your mother around? Where do you live, is it in Bangi?"</div>
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"Yes she is, but we live in Puchong."</div>
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"Oh, I must have been mistaken.</div>
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Your father and I worked together at Sibu.</div>
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You were so little then."</div>
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"Oh, so you must be with my father in the army then?"</div>
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"Yes, your parents attended my daughter's wedding one time.</div>
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I'm so sorry, I really don't know of this."</div>
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"It's okay, I understand. May I know your name?"</div>
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"Mejar Anuar. Tell your mother of me, she will remember."</div>
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"In shaa Allah, I will tell her you called."</div>
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When I told my mother of this, she was so shocked.</div>
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She said he is his best friend. They were always together, and he speaks of him often.</div>
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He always wondered how he is doing.</div>
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In fact, when he passed, everyone tried to call him,</div>
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but no one could reach him.</div>
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I feel so terrible. This is terrible.</div>
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I can't imagine knowing my best friend has passed away only 2 years later.</div>
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I can't figure out a title for this post.</div>
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Well, name it anything you want.</div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>May Allah Taala bless everyone, living and not.</i></span></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-47967507942299831902013-01-30T14:11:00.001+08:002013-01-30T14:11:11.329+08:00Hidden.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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We all wear a mask</div>
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we all have a monster within</div>
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we are all in hiding.</div>
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I knew you well enough</div>
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to know where this is going</div>
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to understand your choices</div>
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and to trust your capabilities.</div>
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I understand your motives well.</div>
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I can't say I'm not worried</div>
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but I can't deny the benefit it would bring.</div>
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You can't hold it back in forever, my friend.</div>
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But I know better than to constantly worry about you.</div>
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I will put my faith in you.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-49362260047082979082013-01-21T04:09:00.002+08:002013-01-21T04:12:51.583+08:00It's little, it's big, it's kindness.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ahter, Alang</div>
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thank you so much from the bottom of my heart</div>
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for offering your phones</div>
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so that I could text my mum</div>
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to pretty much calm her off her worries on me.</div>
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That was unexpected.</div>
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Nobody has ever done that for me before.</div>
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So thank you.</div>
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Angah</div>
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thank you for returning the shillings</div>
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even when you don't have to</div>
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since it's rightfully yours, for our teh tarik.</div>
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That too was unexpected.</div>
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That is really kind of you.</div>
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So thank you.</div>
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Achu</div>
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thank you for coming tonight</div>
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even it's just to save your arse. Haha</div>
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Another unexpected thing.</div>
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You have no idea how much I miss hearing you talk.</div>
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So thank you.</div>
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You guys are amazingly nice tonight.</div>
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Shocking. Stunning.</div>
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Not that you guys are terrible every night or anything</div>
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it's just that everyone is sooooo nice, it's puzzling.</div>
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I like it :)</div>
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The rain outside</div>
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calms down every wrecked nerve in my body</div>
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time just stopped</div>
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and finally, my mind is sound</div>
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and every cell of me</div>
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is at peace.</div>
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Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.</div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-52277470317260374822012-12-31T04:01:00.000+08:002012-12-31T10:09:47.500+08:00'I am grateful.'<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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because</div>
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it reminds me that not all souls have it easy</div>
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<span style="color: #76a5af; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>and that what is a given to one person, may be a rare privilege for another.</i></span></div>
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because</div>
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it teaches me that while first impressions last,</div>
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<i><span style="color: #f1c232; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">perceptions are always faulty; and often, we have to dig deeper to know better.</span></i></div>
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because</div>
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it teaches me how much change love could bring to someone,</div>
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<span style="color: #93c47d; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>a change that surprises even me.</i></span></div>
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I am grateful for having to deal with problems like all of you</div>
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because</div>
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it serves as a reminder</div>
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what a brilliantly lucky asshole I am.</div>
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Battles.</div>
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To face it is often easier said than done.</div>
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However, if words muttered are indeed a prayer,</div>
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perhaps a simple "I believe" could bring a small change.</div>
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<i><span style="color: orange; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">"I believe I am strong."</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: orange; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">"I believe I am not alone."</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: orange; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">"I believe I am ready."</span></i></div>
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Small, but a change nonetheless.</div>
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It is something that even I find hard to follow at times,</div>
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but I guess it is worth the try; so I hope you will try it with me.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Be careful with what you believe yourself to be,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">it might just become you; so make it a good one.</span></i></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>Indeed, you are what you think you are.</i></span></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-87766432461039393532012-12-20T00:00:00.000+08:002012-12-20T00:00:10.282+08:00Momentary.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I share with you my blissful story</div>
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not to brag</div>
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not to sadden you further</div>
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and definitely not to offend you by intent.</div>
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I share each of my life's tale with you</div>
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to assure you</div>
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that if I can have it</div>
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then so can you.</div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="color: #e69138; font-style: italic;">If I can be happy,</span><i> <span style="color: #b45f06;">then</span> <span style="color: #b45f06;">so can you.</span></i></span></div>
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I believe</div>
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we all deserve an acute dose of happiness</div>
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even if it is just momentary.</div>
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>We remember happiness.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>We remember sorrow <u>better.</u></i></span></div>
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And if it were not for the godsend hope</div>
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I think you and I will never meet again tomorrow.</div>
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<span style="color: #38761d;">Thank You, Allah</span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;">for this gift;</span></div>
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<span style="color: #999999; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>temporary as it is.</i></span></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-79044025694770090752012-12-02T22:39:00.000+08:002012-12-02T22:39:35.486+08:00Lucky you.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="color: #a64d79; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>You do hold a meaning in my life.</i></span></div>
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But please don't fancy yourself so special that you think</div>
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my bond to you</div>
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is the reason why I am capable of tolerating you.</div>
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Tolerating you is only possible</div>
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as long as I hold on to my principles;</div>
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and I'm grateful that I managed to grip to it to this day.</div>
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And you are just lucky that I don't blow up to you <span style="color: #e69138; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>yet.</i></span></div>
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-49134709238901595352012-12-01T01:02:00.002+08:002012-12-01T01:02:28.397+08:00To my former dearest,<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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your text telling me that you're in town</div>
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quite surprised me.</div>
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Too bad I'll be off to campus this morning.</div>
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But thanks anyway for remembering to tell me.</div>
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And then you talked about her.</div>
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*rolls eyes*</div>
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<i><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">man, you are quite smitten, aren't you?</span></i></div>
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I was just joking, you know</div>
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about making up false epic stories of you</div>
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so that she'll consider on starting things with you.</div>
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And then you went,</div>
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"no need, just tell her what she needs to know.</div>
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<span style="color: #45818e; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I know I've been bad to you.</span></div>
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I'm giving you the license to tell her about me."</div>
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I didn't know what to think.</div>
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But I knew you. I saw you.</div>
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Therefore I choose to trust you.</div>
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Hey, look</div>
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it's true. You've hurt me more than you ever know.</div>
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<span style="color: #674ea7; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>I have been in pain, but this is the worst, because I trusted you.</i></span></div>
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But in the time we spent to know each other</div>
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I found that you do have some good in you.</div>
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You are honest, and I need that. Well, we all do.<br />
You just suck horribly at the manners at being honest, that's all.<br />
But honest, nonetheless.<br />
And you do care.<br />
And for that, thank you.<br />
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<i><span style="color: #c27ba0; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Well technically you're close to perfect.</span></i><br />
<span style="color: #674ea7; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Except you suck at manners.</span><br />
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Doesn't matter.<br />
The way I see it, it's what inside of you that matters.<br />
Your routine habits, how you talk, those things don't matter to me.<br />
I only care about what you stand for, whether or not you care,<br />
everything that is in your heart.<br />
That's why I stood by you, despite everything.<br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;">Every saint has a past,</span> <span style="color: #38761d;">and every sinner has a future.</span></span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #f6b26b; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>I can't change their opinions on you.</i></span><br />
I can't tell them to observe like I do.<br />
I can't tell them to look at things the way I do.<br />
I can't tell them to put aside what you did to me.<br />
I can't tell them to try to look at you the way I look at you.<br />
They still couldn't forgive you for what you did to me, and I understand.<br />
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<span style="color: #e69138; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We all agree to disagree, and that's fine.</span><br />
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I only wish, that you will take care of her like how you always did to me<br />
and not hurt her like you did to me.<br />
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She is still so very young, naive, and timid.<br />
Please take care of my junior - my sister.<br />
I'm gambling everything here.<br />
Don't disappoint me.<br />
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I give you my permission<br />
with a silent wish that you will amend your mistakes<br />
through her.<br />
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Prove to me<br />
that you are worth that permission.<br />
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<i><span style="color: #8e7cc3; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Please.</span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #674ea7; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>O Allah, please protect her..</i></span><br />
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Endorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14600720244716362857noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6414245093306777728.post-44860928937114057492012-11-28T23:25:00.002+08:002012-11-28T23:25:38.032+08:00Dead Poets Society.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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which truly blew my mind away.</div>
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<span style="color: #93c47d; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>he in fact encourages his students to broaden their minds</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6aa84f; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>and to seize the day</i></span></div>
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he teaches them <i><span style="color: #76a5af; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">how to think</span></i></div>
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Well, here goes nothing.</div>
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Dear crush, the first time I saw you</div>
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I thought you looked like.. a nerd.</div>
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You know, like, <i>skema.</i></div>
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Days go by and we just bonded.</div>
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Just a typical one.</div>
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You talk to me and it just flows from there</div>
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and vice versa.</div>
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Well, we don't do that much anymore.</div>
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It's fine.</div>
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Things change, and so did we.</div>
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I understand.</div>
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And I couldn't care less about what effect these words could bring, anyway.</div>
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I just want to say it somewhere</div>
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since I can't say it to you.</div>
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This may sound so.. weird</div>
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but I'm really just too shy to say it to you.</div>
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Gosh, this is embarrassing </div>
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I never expect that</div>
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you</div>
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will become</div>
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someone</div>
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>who meant so much to me.</i></span></div>
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It is as if</div>
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no matter how many guys I've seen</div>
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and how gorgeous their smile is</div>
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none of them</div>
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could beat yours.</div>
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You have the cutest smile I have ever seen</div>
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and as soon as I saw it</div>
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I am so <i><span style="color: #45818e; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">stunned</span></i> I just froze</div>
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my mind went completely blank</div>
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"damn why are you so cute?"</div>
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I don't know <i><span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">how</span></i> that can happen</div>
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much less <i><span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">why</span>.</i></div>
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I really don't know.</div>
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<i><span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">How could our hearts</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">without our knowledge</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">flew to someone we can never have?</span></i></div>
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<span style="color: #674ea7; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>I don't know.</i></span></div>
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I wish you well.</div>
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