If you really knew me, you would know that I..

.. have so many things to say. I can't let it out ANYWHERE 'coz if I put it here, I'm [possibly] opening up to absolute strangers.. and ironically, to me.. opening up is a painful process. The tear-jerking thing. Hah haa.

If I write it on a piece of paper, my mum WILL find out - I don't want her to - she worrying 'bout me is really not gonna help me in any way.

If I put it on facebook, gosh.. EVERYONE I know [and some, I wish I didn't befriend] is on facebook. Even my mum. So much for privacy.

If I open up to you, I'll bore you to death. I'm sentimental by nature, *sigh* ;]

Well, at least I got the prologue outta my system.

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That said, what we know of each other is really just a tip of the iceberg.

Inspired by 'If You Really Knew Me' by MTV.

 

Holding onto patience, wearing thin.

THIS IS A RANT.

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The wait is a pure killer. My future comes down to this.

I've been waiting for this day. For the results. I don't care if I got it or not.

I JUST WANT TO KNOW THE ANSWER NOWNOWNOW! I can't wait anymore!

And yet, the results is still not out yet! They said mid-November - for fuck's sake it's already 15th November! Isn't that middle enough?!

I'm hoping for a turn of events when it comes out. In a way or another. I just wanted a change, and this is a shot I HAVE to take. And I'm waiting excruciatingly.

It's 3.15am. I don't know if I can sleep. Oh dear God.

OH GOD!

Dude. WTH?

I really just don't fucking get it. Why, you gay pussy, why why WHY?

I frankly don't know where the hell should I start. Well, I'll just start at wherever my thoughts landed on.

On a regularly boring net-browsing hour, I was hitting 'Home' for the 16th time, waiting for updates. Then I saw San's status, 'saw that creature, better cabut! go offline :P'

Well, I've seen this status for so many times. Not everyone had a blast on the same day, right? But somehow, I clicked on the 'comments' button. Alas, I shouldn't have. FML. Just.. FMFL.


Sicko, San, and Sun commented on it. It's the typical kind - sarcasm, cheerful insults, jokes - all that stuff we do out of reflex. :)
Everything looks fine until I saw Sun mentioned my name.. in a sentence that's enough to make me long for a chance to blow this guy up.


Sun has the rep to make jokes, and not all his jokes are charming. Most of those jokes.. are on me. Well, I don't know he gave a similar treatment to anyone.. but this shit is fucking sick.


I've never BSed anything about this guy to anyone, and now, this? WTH, you fucktard pussy!