The boys (and man) in my life.

I have to admit

most of my friends are guys,

and somehow.. I don't blend well with girls.

Please don't ask me why though. :)

Anyway, these are the guys in my life.

Like everything else, nothing lasts forever,

however

knowing them is a blessing.

For that, thank you.

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And the man :)

Saving the best for last

- this one goes out to my dad ^_^

Selamat Hari Raya!

Maap Zahir Batin!

(over) 2 hours of my life that I'll never get back.

Next time

I'll remember to not be alone with a guy.

Even if it's with a (super cute) buddy.

That day

alone

with a guy I considered a friend

stuck at a place of no escape

because of the rain.

What proved to be quite a challenge

is just how cute he is.

Distracted - that's the state I was in.

I will never do that again.

I would have stayed up with you all night.

Lagu ni aku layan sejak Form 2 lagi. Tahun tu, satu klas layan lagu ni!
Bile lagu ni dimainkan, konpem kitorg karok ramai2.
Penah skali OTW pi camping, lagu ni berkumandang di radio.
Karok la, pe lagi!
Lagu ni la yg buat band ni peymes. Dgr cite ade smpai 3 official video.
Well, band dh laku. Duit byk. Takat buat video bebyk pun ape la sgt kan. :p

So jemput layan lagu nih! :D

Step one you said we need to talk

He walks, he said sit down it's just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known.. how to save a life?

Let him know that your know best

'Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense.. without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God He hears you.. and pray to God He hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known.. how to save a life?

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours, and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road, or break with the ones you followed

He will do one of two things, he will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known.. how to save a life?

How to save a life.

How to save a life..

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known.. how to save a life?

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known.. how to save a life?

How to save a life.

How to save a life.

Respect, dude.

Aku anta SMS kat die

"bile free miss call.. nnt aku buat SuperSavers."

Tujuannye nk meluahkan perasaan =____='

Dan nk dgr keadaan die di sane.

Sahabatku yg kusayangi dan hormati.

Tapi pd hakikatnye, hati ini berbelah bagi nk call die, SMS die. Enta la.

Yelaa, hari tu, bile AKHIRNYE (alhamdulillah) dpt kontek, sore die..

mak aih, berubah betol dr kali terakhir aku call die.

Enta kenape, terluah perasaan kat sorg lg blogger nih.

Bile dh dgr, die berkate, "ko bleh buat sebenanye."

Tambahnye, kalau die boleh tahan.. aku pun boleh tahan.

"X ke ko rase ko menambahkan lg masalah die?"

Astaghfirullah.

Now that explains everything.

Aku kene kuatkan diri. Serius, ketabahan die.. mmg buat aku kagum.

Kau mmg kuat, sahabat.

Yelaaa. Ade je spesies tabah.

Tp die ni.. dari utara selatan timur barat die diduge.

Aku yg mendengar critenye.. hnye mmpu terlopong, mengucap.

Suarenye, gayenye bercerite, crita yg tiada henti.. semuanye menandakan betapa lame ia terpendam.

Sebak, sayu, marah.. sumenye bercampur baur.

Nk nangis pun ade. >.<"

Kini, aku tercabar/dengki/jeles dgn ketabahannye.

This very person has supported me everytime I feel like I've hit rock bottom.

Now, I must presevere.. and return the favour.

Time.

Time.

It never stops

It doesn't wait

It goes on.

From what I've seen..

.. I believe I should do the same.

I should move on.

Because everyone has moved on. I can't stay in the past forever.

And I can't definitely hopelessly wait for it to be better..

I must move on.

You came after the hardship as convenience.

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أنتَ نورُ اللهِ فجراً

 جِئتَ بعدَ العُسرِ يسراً

ربنا اعلاكَ قدراً 

 يا إمامَ الأنبياء

Anta noorol lahy fajran
Jeita baadal osry yosran
Rabbona aalaka kadran
Ya imam al anbeya’ee

You are the light of Allah at dawn
You came after the hardship as convenience
Our Allah raised up your position
Oh Imam (Leader) of the Prophets

 انتَ في الوجدانِ حيٌّ

انتا للعينين ضيٌّ

انتا عند الحوض ريٌ

انتا هادي وصفيٌّ

ياحبيبي يا محمدْ

Anta fel wejdany hayyon
Anta lel aynayny dayyon
Anta endal hawdy reyyon
Anta haden wa safeyyon
Ya habeeby ya muhammad

You are alive in sentiment
You are the light of eyes
You are the irrigation at the Hawd (basin)
You are the absolutely pure guide
My beloved Muhammad

يانبي سلام عليك

يارسول سلام عليك

يا حبيب سلام عليك

صلواتُ اللهِ عليكَ

Ya nabi salam alayka
Ya rassool salam alayka
Ya habeeb salam alayka
Salawatol lah alayka

Oh Prophet, peace be upon you
Oh Messenger, peace be
Oh beloved, peace be
The prayers of Allah be

يرتوي بِالحبُّ قلبي

حبُّ خير رُسلُ ربي

مَنْ به ابصرتُ دربي

ياشفيعي يارسول الله

Yartawee bel hobby kalby
Hobby khayry rosly rabby
Man behee absarto darby
Ya shafee’ee ya rassool Allah

 My heart irrigates with love
Whom by him I have seen my path
The love of the best of Messengers of my God
My intercessor, Oh Messenger of Allah

أيها المُختارُ فينا

زادنا الحبُّ حنيناً

جِئتنا بالخيرِ ديناً

ياختام المرسلين

ياحبيبي يا محمدْ

Ayyohal mokhtaro feena
Zadanal hobbo haneena
Jeitana bel khayry deena
Ya khetamal morsaleena
Ya habeeby ya Muhammad

Oh, the chosen out from us
Love boosted up the nostalgia
You came for us with religious peace
Oh, final Messenger
My beloved Muhammad

يانبي سلام عليك

يارسول سلام عليك

يا حبيب سلام عليك

صلواتُ اللهِ عليكَ

Ya nabi salam alayka
Ya rassool salam alayka
Ya habeeb salam alayka
Salawatol lah alayka

Oh Prophet, peace be upon you
Oh Messenger, peace be
Oh beloved, peace be
The prayers of Allah be

This calls for solat istikharah. PLEASE READ, need your opinions :|

 -post ini dibuat semasa IMD152-

this has to be the biggest mistake

i have ever done

in my life.

I thought, with this

I could get college.

I could allowance so that I don't have to use her money.

I get to go to places.

I'm getting experiences.

But for some reason..

known and unknown,

it went out of hand.

Some were self-inflicted.

Others.. I didn't ask for all that.

I'm no longer the person I used to be.

I don't know if I'm actually happy.

But I know.. I never felt this lost.

And my mum.. the more she heard of what had happened to me

the more she would ask

"do you want to quit?

if you want to, i'm all for it."

She asked that question more times that I could even remember.



If I quit,

it'll be a shame to my 2 weeks of pain and tears.

I'll never see them again

those friends who felt exactly what I felt.

I could get the freedom I've always wanted.

I could go anywhere.. without having to worry about syit meetings.

Meeting wing la, meeting biro la, meeting ape jadah sume.

Tolong la, ayah aku yg askar pon xde la nk meeting je memanjang!

Urgh, and I can go home, whenever I please

And mum won't have to cry when I leave.

 

If I don't,

I'll be only lying to myself.

Just look at me now - aku memang dah lain betol dah.

Dan perubahan tu.. rasenye bkn lah perubahan yg baik.

I have to admit - I love being a commander.

The only thing I've ever loved about this life is hari Rabu - hari tu aku akan handle dak2 junior.

I love my juniors, hikhik. No, aku benci ragging. :)

This thing.. should be fun. Lagipun my dad had fun.

But no. It wasn't.

Yelaaa. Yg handle sape - student. Bkn askar.
Lau askar.. ragging camne pun ade sonok gak, aiyooo.

I'll be distancing myself from everyone

my classmates, my wingmates, well everyone

even further.

Should I stay.. or should I go?

 sebab walau ape pon decision aku dalam hal ni..

bende ni akan memberi kesan besao kepada hidup aku.

harap korang leh bagi pendapat :)

Ya Allah, turunkanlah ke atas hambaMu ini petunjukMu..

Fool.

YOU. 

An idiot. bungukbungukBUNGUK

A total blurcase.

 Self-centred.

Too kind to a fault.

Always looked back, never to the present and future.

Depressingly melancholic - sad like syit.

Cepat tacing! Eee orang nak try pujuk pon seksa tau x, ba alif ngang!

A nice person, severely mistreated.

 So friendly, you're famous.

Heartbreakingly charming.

  You're kinda cute.

Pretty smart.

Too loyal - it's just too hard for you leave someone you loved so much..

 Imperfectly perfect.

I hate you so much.. I just

don't understand, can't comprehend

how the heck

did I fall for you

in the first place.

To be honest.. I feel stupid for feeling so.

But there's nothing I can do about it, do I?

Looks like you'll be in my thoughts.

It's hard to forget just how adorable you are.

 Eventhough.. you're a pain in the ass, sometimes.

There's no denying that.

In my mind, in my heart

Just where you will be

Until He chooses to change his plans for me. :)

 

What used to be..

Could you remind me of a time

When we were so alive

Do you remember that?

Do you remember that?

Ibarat permata dalam timbunan kaca - PART 2.

Yaaa. Sudah kubilang akan ada lagi. :D

Apakah kamu pikir-

Ah, sudah2. Hahah :p

Ok, post ini adalah mengenai sahabatku sejak di bangku skolah menengah, iaitu

Sabrina Danial Leong. :)

Yup, she's a Malay-Chinese mix.

Hahah, rumah die ngan aku dekat je. Skolah same. Kelas same.

Mak kitorg pun saling kenal.

Start kenal die mase skolah menengah la, duhh.

Mase Form 1, lain klas. Bile msok Form 2 bru same klas saaaaampai Form 5.

InsyaAllah, bulan September taon ni die akan msok USM nuuuun di utagha.

Applied Science, x silap.

Lau bab2 sains cam Chemistry ke, Physics ke lebih2 lagi Bio.. mmg die suke.

Above all, die suke veterinary.

Sangat sukekan haiwan, lebih2 lagi kucen. Kat umah die ade kucen tau. Comel, bermate biru, puteh lg suci :p

Bagi aku, die matang. Sempoi.. cam open-minded la. Dan amat supportive.

Die memang bkn jenis judgmental.

Bagi die, lain orang, lain cara idop, lain segala galenye.

X mudah gelabah. Relax je.

Yang paling buat aku sayang mayang ialah betape supportive nye die.

Aku ade crite kat die.. yg aku ade nawaitu nk msok tentera.

Bru nawaitu. Hihihi.

Yelaaa, komander kat sini ade mase mmg hebad, ade mase cam haram je aku tengok. Haih, x patot btol.

So agak cuak la, bimbang msok tentera kang cam haram gak kan.

Tp die tetap bg support.

Die kate, "Take your time. Ape pon ko buat, aku support."

Mmg die support.

Hahah, mcm tu la die, dari dlu lagi.

Bile aku balik Puchong, kekadang kitorg akan kuar jalan2.

Slalunye diselitkan ngan tgk movie.

Kekadang akan ajak dak2 lain gak.. mcm biase.

Paling x pun, die akan dtg umah, lepak2, tgk movie lagii.

Kitorg mmg suke tgk movie :D

Sejuk hati bile pk ade yg menanti aku pulang.. dan antaranye ialah

kawan2 sepertinye.

Haih, sunyi la aku bile die xde blan 9 ni nnt.

Semoga kau berjaya di sane! :D