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Thursday, November 17, 2011

This is where I've been the whole time.. in cyberspace. XD






Dah makin kurang berblogging kat sini.
Tapi ok la tu, dari langsung bia berhabuk, hahaha


Skang ni banyak mase terluang kat




This is my Tumblr.
Mostly reblogging bende2 bengong dan klaka je, hahaha
Shared some songs
Wrote some stuff
Keje senang, tapi lebih aman dari facebook.
X tipu la, kite memang kaki online facebook.
There's no denying that. However
Kat Tumblr
I can do whatever I want.
Share whatever I want.
Write, reblog whatever I want.
Here, I can be whoever I want to be. Hahahah
Itu ayat gebang la nak menggambarkan bestnye Tumblr. x)


Sesape yang ade Tumblr, jemput follow.
Leh share2. :D


Take care everyone. ;)





Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I'm so sorry.






Susah
bila tanpa disedari
hati terpaut pada orang lain.
Masih sukakan yang pertama
tapi hati terpaut.. pada orang yang tidak disangka sangka.


Cinta cintan cintun
Hamek kau. Skali terkene
There's no turning back!
Because love is something you fall into
which is why it's so hard to get out!


Ya.
Hati ini terpaut pada dua orang.
Damn, rasa bersalah habis
walaupun rakan kata
"awak tak bersalah, lagipun kita tak tahu mana yang baik untuk kita."
Yela. Suke je pun. Bukan couple dua2 skali ke ape.


Tapi terasa diri ini tamak!
Ampunilah hambaMu ini, Ya Allah..
Kurniakanlah ke atasku petunjukMu
dan bantulah diri ini menempuhi hidupku.








Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Not now.






Dear heart, do me a favour.



Please don't fall for anyone just yet.
I'm already done hoping for a past to repeat itself.


Dear YOU.
Remember how we used to like and comment each other's statuses?
How we could talk to each other?
How good we were last time?


And the next thing I knew
all of that just stopped.


I don't know what happened.
I don't know if I've done anything wrong to you.
Or if there's something you wished I'd do but I didn't.


To tell you the truth, I was crushing on you.
But just my luck
you were crushing on someone else.
That's fine. Just follow your heart.
I'm not going to do anything with you anymore.


I mean, we don't talk like we used to anymore.
So, it's okay.


Now, I really, REALLY can't afford to fall for anyone.


I think
the walls are rising higher.
trust is becoming too precious to be given away so easily.
what more, love.


I'm dying to reach out.
However
I see more judgment than understanding.
So please tell me
How do I explain just how much I care.. to someone
who'll never understands?





Saturday, November 5, 2011

Why you?






Foul. Quite annoying.
Smart. Funny. Trustworthy. Caring.
Fearless without being rude
to the extend of being envied and hated.
Polite and loyal.. to the point of being used.
Good-looking.. although, to be honest, it took me a while to see that.
 


If I tell the story of you to the whole world
they would either
think you're awesome
see you as a hero
thought you're broken/lonely/hurt
or the best yet.. fall for you.



Logically, I could have felt all the above.



Funny, somehow
I can't fall for you.



The fact that you were so used
to being alone
to being independent
sort of makes me feel sorry for you.
But it was because that you were so observant
that drove me to be friends with you.



I don't know if I'm needed
or that if I'm any useful to you
But damn you looked so alone.



And now, I had to make a decision.
To be stronger.. or to be wiser.
To tell you the truth, I want to stay
and be there for those who'll come.
It was painful. The life drives me crazy. The people pisses me off.
But then I got used to it, in time.. and I fell in love with it all.
Until I was told that I have to leave.
Back then, I cried because I couldn't take it.
Now.. I cried because I have to leave a little too soon.



I don't know who to talk to.
So I called you.
Even before being this close as we are now
I figured, you were the last person who'll hear me cry.
How am I wrong.
Syit, you're the first.



Why does it have to be you?
You didn't mind about other people's lives.
You're bloody foul.
And you just keep pushing people away.




Why destiny let you
who never think about anyone around you
who doesn't let anyone in
whose walls are unbreakable
be the first person who'll hear me cry over the phone?





Friday, November 4, 2011

Seperti yang kusangkakan.






Pointer aku jatuh.
Dan aku repeat 2 paper.
Hahahah, molek tol akan jumpe balik junior yg aku jage time Kesatria. XD
Nasib baik aku ni bukan kaki jerit. Penyayang ade la. Huahahah
Tapi bukan sem depan la carry paper tuh..
InsyaAllah.. mungkin Sem 4. Sem 5 amek paper Sem 4 plak.
Xpe2, aku redha. Aku trime. Yang tinggal
hanyelah untuk memilih jalan penyelesaian yang sesuai.


Mase aku tengok pointer untuk Sem 1, aku dah cuak.
Yelaa. Dah la segar dari ladang LIBK.
Bile dah jadi KRM sah2 la banyak koje.
Al maklum la, memang dah adat tradisi UiTM kot
Asal batch paling junior je mesti kene taik.
Mase Part 1, ade je kawan2 yang kene ayat, "kimak Part 1!" Ape la.
Komander? Of course la. Haih malas nak cakap.
Lau aku jenis cari gado, memang depan2 gak kene.
Kakak2 aku plak sumenye pointer leh tahan.
Jadi, expectation pun agak tinggi.
Err ini antara sebab aku x nak DL sebenanye.
Maaflah. Ini hanyelah pendapat daripada pengalaman dan pemerhatian aku.


Aku rase cam nak buat je solat istikharah ni.
Nak quit Kesatria ke x?
Sakit memang sakit. Sayang memang sayang.
Nak stay, ade yang kate, "baik ko kua."
Nak blah, ade yang kate, "nape tetibe mengalah?"
Uihh rumit2.


Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu ini..