Why you?

Foul. Quite annoying.

Smart. Funny. Trustworthy. Caring.

Fearless without being rude

to the extend of being envied and hated.

Polite and loyal.. to the point of being used.

Good-looking.. although, to be honest, it took me a while to see that.

 

If I tell the story of you to the whole world

they would either

think you're awesome

see you as a hero

thought you're broken/lonely/hurt

or the best yet.. fall for you.

Logically, I could have felt all the above.

Funny, somehow

I can't fall for you.

The fact that you were so used

to being alone

to being independent

sort of makes me feel sorry for you.

But it was because that you were so observant

that drove me to be friends with you.

I don't know if I'm needed

or that if I'm any useful to you

But damn you looked so alone.

And now, I had to make a decision.

To be stronger.. or to be wiser.

To tell you the truth, I want to stay

and be there for those who'll come.

It was painful. The life drives me crazy. The people pisses me off.

But then I got used to it, in time.. and I fell in love with it all.

Until I was told that I have to leave.

Back then, I cried because I couldn't take it.

Now.. I cried because I have to leave a little too soon.

I don't know who to talk to.

So I called you.

Even before being this close as we are now

I figured, you were the last person who'll hear me cry.

How am I wrong.

Syit, you're the first.

Why does it have to be you?

You didn't mind about other people's lives.

You're bloody foul.

And you just keep pushing people away.

Why destiny let you

who never think about anyone around you

who doesn't let anyone in

whose walls are unbreakable

be the first person who'll hear me cry over the phone?