Just what I need :)

Mama posted on my wall.

It may seem trivial
but it came when I least expect it.. and when I truly need it.

The truth is I've never been so down.

The last time I did

was when my dad passed.

Then everything kind of going down in spirals.

I thought I was doing fine.

I thought I could cope with this.

I thought I was strong.

Damn, just how wrong I was.

If I'm fine, I would have never got into trouble.

If I could cope with this, I would have never even fall.

If I'm strong, I wouldn't cry as much.

But it doesn't matter now.

I just wanted you around

and calm me down.

I'm freaking out.

I'm still new to this world, I don't know what to do

and I don't want to tell you anything

because I want you to trust me

but I still want your warmth around me.

I still want your love.

Mum, I'm really sorry if I'm never good enough

or that if I'll never be

but I need you

because I'm quite lost right now

and I want you to tell me it's going to be fine somehow.

Mama I need you.