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Saturday, March 3, 2012

Just what I need :)

Mama posted on my wall.

It may seem trivial
but it came when I least expect it.. and when I truly need it.
The truth is I've never been so down.
The last time I did
was when my dad passed.
Then everything kind of going down in spirals.

I thought I was doing fine.
I thought I could cope with this.
I thought I was strong.
Damn, just how wrong I was.

If I'm fine, I would have never got into trouble.
If I could cope with this, I would have never even fall.
If I'm strong, I wouldn't cry as much.

But it doesn't matter now.
I just wanted you around
and calm me down.
I'm freaking out.
I'm still new to this world, I don't know what to do
and I don't want to tell you anything
because I want you to trust me
but I still want your warmth around me.

I still want your love.

Mum, I'm really sorry if I'm never good enough
or that if I'll never be
but I need you
because I'm quite lost right now
and I want you to tell me it's going to be fine somehow.

Mama I need you.

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Anonymous said...

aww~ be strong. :)